Wasted

I guess I am the type of guy who hates wasting.

I wasted today, and yesterday, and the day before.

Wasted.

What did I waste? Resources, that 'could' have been useful to someone else, at least that is what my head kept telling me, that out there somewhere there was someone who could have benefited from what I was tossing in the trash. The thought did not just occur to me when the fifth dump truck load left, its was there, and has been there for some time through all five loads.

I'm not sure I get it. I'm not sure I'm even right on this one, I just know it bugged me and still does. There was plenty of time, to bring others into the building (which needed to be clean by today) and see if they might be interested in a few items, but I never did that, and the easiest thing to do in these last days was toss, toss, toss.

I'm not sure my heart is settled on it, and when my daughter was reading 1 John tonight I think that is where it gripped me the most:

1 John 3:16-20 This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him? Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth. This then is how we know that we belong to the truth, and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence whenever our hearts condemn us. For God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything.

I guess, all that to say, my heart is condemning me, and I'm not sure what to do about it.

served my self today

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